Am I confused??

I want a state wherein I am

neither happy nor sad
neither smiling nor crying
neither casual nor angry
neither alone nor together
neither occupied by thoughts nor completely blank
neither active nor lazy
neither alive nor dead
neither traveling nor sitting idle
neither living for myself nor for others
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neither with expectations nor without them

oops... how many expectations I have from a single life that I have!!! With all these thoughts or expectations or watever, how is it I am LIVING my life!!!
I had lost all my present moments thinking of wat I want from life..Isnt it???
Though, the truth is life has some mystery hidden in it each moment. be it simple or complex. And never gonna be the way I want it from deep within ME :) oh no... why should I want anything !!!

I should accept anything and everything without 2nd thoughts.. Just go ahead and live every moment.. (hehe..Expectation 1)

Wen is my confused mind gonna understand ths !!

May be soon (hahaha.. another expectation!!!)

Oh man.. Expectations goes on... Or may be I should look at the definition for Expectation.

(Source : Wikipedia)
In the case of uncertainty, expectation is what is considered the most likely to happen. An expectation, which is a belief that is centred on the future, may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. If something happens that is not at all expected it is a surprise. An expectation about the behavior or performance of another person, expressed to that person, may have the nature of a strong request, or an order.


Hmm..Is it like expectations can be from myself and not others...

Well... I am confused. :)

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Does God have a role in making human beings(whom I consider as God's greatest wonder) cruel? If not, when is the lesson taught for such people?