Unlucky Luck

Almost everyone in this universe should have experienced it. If something goes wrong first on a day, that day will never seem to get any better till we go to sleep. And most likely that even a less messed up event might take a huge image on the mind and feels that whole world has turned against us.

It was more frequent in college days. I would rush to the bus stop to find that my window seat in the usual Govt bus to college,being occupied by someone else and left with no choice than to stand looking for a seat getting empty.
[Well, what could be so special about a window seat!!! Daily bus commuters in Chennai should understand it better. Bus travel is worth a separate blog.(oh my god. nth post added to the "Wish to blog" list when the current post is just moved out of the list from n-(n-1)th position)]

Yeah, back to those days, the unlucky luck would join me in the same bus to help me make it the most unlucky day and leave me safely back at home in the evening,assuring me that the next visit would be very soon.

Similar to one of those college days happened to me last week. But it gives immense pleasure to realize that the effect on me was not the same. It was just any other day , in fact, more joyous than a usual day giving more valid reasons to laugh about. yeah, I am getting matured and life is beautiful :P

Where did it all begin?

One fine day, I woke up at 5.45 AM with a dangerous decision of preparing lunch for me and my friend. A rough plan in my mind seemed to be fine. I had to prepare some sabji and rotis for my friend atleast, before she leaves for work.

As always, there was something terribly missing in the so called tomato-onion sabji.

I consoled myself that messing up a dish was more than usual for me. Luckily, roti that I prepared for my friend qualified to be a roti.

With a happy note that the day had strted fine, i left for morning walk. I hate drinking milk. But I was destined to like milk that day. So, I was back home with a milk packet.

I poured it into the milk vessel and kept it on stove. I moved to hall and started rolling the rotis for my lunch. yeah, i completely forgot that there was milk boiling more than it had to.
After realizing the smell of over boiled milk, I hurried into the kitchen with rolled rotis in one hand. I placed the rotis near the gas and started clearing off the milk. In the process, I spilled water all over rotis. No wonder that rotis that I made that time turned out to be .................................................................
bricks.

Never mind. I had to eat it. Let me not share it with anyone. My teeth is strong for this. But with a little worry about lunch and hope of making atleast breakfast to be worth eating, I kept bread on the same pan that I used for chapathi. Ah, someone called me on my mobile then. I rushed to my room and completely forgot the bread. When I remember the bread again, as expected, the colour was dark. Completely black. No way of eating it.

And I managed to get 2 slices. Kitchen was a complete mess by then. I thought of cleaning it before leaving for office. But only then, the motor creates a problem and no water left. As it was already late, I took bath with the little water that my friend had kept and left home.

Auto drivers never knew that I had screwed up everything that I did since morning. So they took the great responsibility of making it even worser, by asking 50Rs for a 2km ride. This resulted in a most entertaining fight between us.

I took another auto and reached office and took lift to the 7th floor. Yeah, I was telling myself that it was all over and I cannot spoil anything again that day. What is it? Elevator had long back crossed my floor and I was in 9th floor. Before anyone could see, I got out of it and rushed to my seat, laughing at the fact that it was just a beginning and the unlucky luck was already well settled and comfortable with me.

My "unlucky luck" has warned me not to post all the surprises it gave me, lest it would come back to me.

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தற்போதைய பிடித்த வரிகள் - ஆயிரத்தில் ஒருவன் படத்திலிருந்து

சிரிப்பதும் அழுவதும் உன் வேலை
நடப்பவை நடக்கட்டும் அவன் லீலை

Confusions continued..

This is going to be Confused-part 2. So ppl, who were not happy with part1 can stay away from this post.

There can be ppl who think that I am confused all the time and hence all the previous posts. But its always true that something that is sensible to me may not be for others. I am surprised as I was not the same before and was always feared of my thoughts being rejected. But now, I know I am liking blogging very much these days and the first rule in it is being open to all sorts of comments. I have realized it after 2 yrs of my blog-life. :P

Ok..now, what am I confused abt? To be precise,rite now, i am confused abt wat I am confused.
I have read it somewhere that human thoughts travel faster than light. very true. The thoughts that prevailed in my confused mind ,when I started with the first sentence, had travelled so far that I have no clue on where it is now.

i dont know why i m blogging now. I am just enjoying it. Nah, this doesnt seem to qualify as a convincing answer. May be that, there is no one around to listen to my thoughts. Or I chose a wider audience for my thoughts to be shared.

Atleast here, I need to justify the heading for this post . And to add on, let me make myself clear here that there will be no direct,simple but never answerable questions in this post.

As in everyone's life, there is good as well as bad in my life. Its my assumption right now that Life has both good to rejoice and evil to crib about.*(subject to change in seconds).

I can concentrate on Good and I will be all happy. But I will not be sure, if I was completely happy or convinced myself that I can fool myself to be so. I can feel simple pleasures on going for walk or fun with kids or just sitting alone,staring at the sky. I would call many people, good old friends and i would feel happy.Ah... Life is so simple... its all about happiness and how mad on my part it was to waste time on stupid, unimportant issues.

But this wouldnt continue for long. I would soon get into the other side of the life. everything around me would seem to be against me. Millions of questions flash thru my mind. Millions has to be an under-estimation for sure. I would try hard not to let my thoughts into the dark side. I would hardly succeed in it. I was able to succeed a couple of times. But that would lead to another thought that it was not supposed to be the way I had to live.And ultimately, the result would be the same though it gets postponed in showing it out.

Well..the confusion here is about what is Life.
Is it all abt happiness? Or is it completely sad? Or, is it a mixture of both?

If its all about happiness, why am i sad at times? If its all sad, why am I happy at times? So, these 2 possibilities are ruled out completely abt life.

If its both in life, why is there no complete happiness or complete sadness at single point of time? Ok..Its my responsibility to define complete happiness and complete sadness. how do I explain it,without experiencing it? Skip it. :P

what am I trying to say. Lets assume both co-exist. Happiness and sadness. Its just that one dominates the other at any point of time. And its my mind that can choose which has to. But my mind is always partial and it tries to suppress the sadness.In that process, mind never know that its letting the sadness to succeed. So I become sad ultimately.

Hold on. When I am happy, I never hesitate to be happy. Why is it that I am so partial to the emotions? I was happy and I was able to accept it. Its a kind of emotion. So is the sadness. I should accept it and why should I get rid of it.yeah, I am sad now for some reason. That reason has to be a valid one at least for me. And ofcourse, the degree of sadness is not going to be the same for everyone. why should I try hard to hide it and make myself happy. I am worried.why should I stop it from happening. Since there was something negative about anything and everything,I had thought abt it and it would be my fault to conclude that there is nothing abt it.

Moreover, whole of universe is all abt change. If I am going to be happy now, i will change and be sad in sometime. And if I am going to be sad now, i will turn out to be happy next moment. So is the cause of the happiness or sadness. that has to change.

ok..where did I start? where did I end? Nowhere. I am still at the same point. :) Dont ask me at which point. I can only question and not answer..

And ofcourse, people who were expecting me not to pose unanswerable questions should know that I failed on it very badly.

Good or Bad

Sometimes we land up in situation where, being good to one person may turn out to be bad for other. But its never avoidable. :) Does this mean I am good? Or does it mean I am bad?

Sixth Sense

I smile at her;
Cry over her;
Scold her;
Enjoy her;
Feel proud of her;
Admire her;
Hate her;
Love her;

yeah..She is the precious mysterious Sixth sense, man has got..

Why did I consider that Sixth sense as woman!! No specific reason. :)

But Why (wo)men has got sixth sense!!
I dont know!!- Let me avoid questions which can never have logical, convincing answers.

Day before yesterday, i was scolding her.
Yesterday, i was admiring her..
Now???

I dont know myself :) :(

Am I confused??

I want a state wherein I am

neither happy nor sad
neither smiling nor crying
neither casual nor angry
neither alone nor together
neither occupied by thoughts nor completely blank
neither active nor lazy
neither alive nor dead
neither traveling nor sitting idle
neither living for myself nor for others
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neither with expectations nor without them

oops... how many expectations I have from a single life that I have!!! With all these thoughts or expectations or watever, how is it I am LIVING my life!!!
I had lost all my present moments thinking of wat I want from life..Isnt it???
Though, the truth is life has some mystery hidden in it each moment. be it simple or complex. And never gonna be the way I want it from deep within ME :) oh no... why should I want anything !!!

I should accept anything and everything without 2nd thoughts.. Just go ahead and live every moment.. (hehe..Expectation 1)

Wen is my confused mind gonna understand ths !!

May be soon (hahaha.. another expectation!!!)

Oh man.. Expectations goes on... Or may be I should look at the definition for Expectation.

(Source : Wikipedia)
In the case of uncertainty, expectation is what is considered the most likely to happen. An expectation, which is a belief that is centred on the future, may or may not be realistic. A less advantageous result gives rise to the emotion of disappointment. If something happens that is not at all expected it is a surprise. An expectation about the behavior or performance of another person, expressed to that person, may have the nature of a strong request, or an order.


Hmm..Is it like expectations can be from myself and not others...

Well... I am confused. :)

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